Nursing


Thursday, 18 October 2012

Mental breakdown

Tau aku tengah buat apa?


Staring at the ceiling. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking.


Sistem universiti bertukar lagi. Kali ni sistem exam. Sekali lagi. Mungkin yang keberapa puluh kali.


Membuatkan aku sekali lagi. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking.


Why am I here at the first place?


What did I do to deserve these?


Thinking. For the hundred times.


Mungkin belum cukup jadual kami diextend sebulan agaknya.


I had enough of extension. 6+1 months delay is enough. I don't want to live here for another year. Please.


Sistem exam pulak bertukar. Allah, aku memang tak yakin dengan kemampuan diri.


Tengok balik ceiling bilik. Kembali berfikir.


Incident pagi tadi dah cukup mendownkan aku. Tengah hari tadi pulak dapat berita sistem bertukar lagi. Sampai akhirnya aku fikir.





What do they want?







Arghhh. Apa aku nak buat ni?







I need to go back for good.
I need to finish things I've started for the past 5 years.
I need to prove myself to people who doesn't believe I can do this.






I hate this place.
I hate living here.
And I hate being asked when I'm going to finish.







Don't you see that I'm trying here? Don't you?








God, I'm mentally breaking down.


Help me, guide me ya Allah. Please.






-adios-







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3 comments:

  1. rileks la. cik ana suruh rileks

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  2. sabar byk2. bila susah skrg, kek g2 kalau susah camni lg, jadi la kacang goreng

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thank you very muchooo!

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